88.
Wandering Soul
The girl paused before she answered. “Everything is connected, you two are connected, and I am also connected to both of you. This girl that I am now is a soul that belongs to your soul family. She came into your life to communicate with you at a certain time. You were very young when you first met her, so she had to take you back to your childhood memories. These memories also include other souls that belong to your soul family as well. They all want you to reunite with them. And this is my desire, too.”
“So, you are saying that she, this soul that belong to my soul family, is also You?” I tried to understand.
“Well, yes and no …” she answered ambiguously. “It would be more accurate to say that this soul is a part of me.”
“In this moment, this soul is still waiting for you. She doesn’t want to be born on Tuengra yet because she is waiting to join you. You know, in your soul family, you are the only one who is missing,” she explained.
“Only me??” I said surprised.
“Yes, only you,” the girl confirmed. “As soon as you join, the group of souls will be complete. Every other soul has already joined and was reborn in this world, everyone except her and you. All this time, she has been wandering in space, waiting for the moment in which both of you would meet.”
“And during all this time she has been communicating with You through me, reminding You of her existence by appearing in your dreams.”
“What about the other souls in my family group who are already reborn, where are they now?” I asked curiously.
“You will meet them when the time is right. And to tell you the truth, you have already met most of them.”
“Who are they? Do you mean all the people whom I have met since I arrived here?”
“Yes, all of them, no one is excluded,” she replied.
“So Meen, Napha, Koharu, Masada, Vince, you mean all of them?” I asked to confirm.
“Yes, all of them, but there are many more.”
“All except one, who is still waiting for your return. And now, she is growing in the womb of your partner,” the girl said, with a warm smile radiating from her face.
“Oh!! Are you telling me that the girl wandering in space will be born as my daughter?”
“Yes, that’s what I’m trying to tell you.”
“I see …” I said, trying to process everything I was hearing.” So, that means she’s not my soulmate, but she’s my daughter instead?”
“Being together in the definition of the universe isn’t limited to being husband and wife. For us on Tuengra there is no difference between the love of a husband and a wife, the love of a father and a son, or the love between neighbours,” she explained.
“When that girl is born to this world, she will look the same as she does now. This is a piece of the jigsaw puzzle of the universe of which you had a glimpse before, and which is now being revealed to you step-by-step. The fact is that you will only fully understand this secret when your child grows up over the next nine years.”
“Well, I’m starting to understand it now,” I said. “I’ve always wondered who that girl is and why she has appeared so often to me. This explains everything.”
“Now I remember,” I went on. “There were many times in my life when I suffered a lot, and during those moments she has always appeared and soothed me. Sometimes, I didn’t even understand what she was saying but I felt better and relieved every time I heard her voice.”
“The last time she appeared was after my girlfriend had broken up with me. I couldn’t sleep for many nights; I remember it well since it happened not long ago. She told me that the suffering I went through was a necessary process that would help me understand later what true happiness is. I didn’t know it back then, but now I realised what she meant and I get it completely.
She looked at me understandingly and I felt her deep compassion. “Back then you have dealt with the situation very well,” she said. “You surrendered to all your suffering. You forgave the person who made you suffer with the sincerity of your heart. You avoided to react in a way that would cause a binding karma with that person. The karmic contract was therefore null and void. And I can assure you that this was the last condition that you had to endure in your world. Since then, there is no burden left to test you. Your soul is now free of all bonds.”
“And since you transitioned into this unburdened state, you have been given the opportunity to choose between remaining in your old world and coming to live in this new one where you will find happiness and acquire eternal life. And you have made your choice.”
“Have I made the choice?” I asked, quite perplexed.
“Yes, you made your choice when you took the magazine from me. You chose to go to the place where you found the portal. You chose to run around that portal at a specific time. If you had made a different choice and gone back to your friends, everything would have been different. Everything that has happened to you happened because of the choices you have made,” she concluded.